July 31, 2008
- Awareness -
Awareness is infinity. It is the one thing that does not move with the stream of time flowing by (diamond mind). In it and all things exist, and all dualities are nullified.
Awareness is an-entropic.
Science, the objective, looks only at the time stream, with awareness removed. Science has difficulty understanding the existence of awareness and consciousness. To science, there is no measurable difference between a dead body and a living one.
Science is entropic. Science’s world view is entropic, all things tend toward death or disorder. And thus we are negativity seeking, as that is all we can recognize through the lens of science.
Yet it is the purpose of human life to embody awareness, to embody infinity. For we are both the embodiment of it and the source of it within time.
We place infinity, awareness, god, the good, the true, and the beautiful, into the life stream. We do it so that the lifestream is renewed, and can continue.
We are not behaving properly. We have lost touch with this inner sun. This was perhaps lost in the growth of civilization, when objective entropic death was introduced as a substitute for the eternal an-entropic truth within.
It is meant to embody it, meant to point to it. But instead, we have mistaken this pointing mirror for the image reflected in it. We are left embracing a cold, dead, piece of glass. An illusion.
Form, be it as ego or as language or as any other form, is the simple everyday reification of the all-and-everything, and is only a reflection of that same eternal all-and-everything.
This is what is within us. This is what we must balance within us, so that form and eternity can co-exist. Either alone if no good.
Do not listen to my words. Sit and do it yourself. Bring your awareness into the time stream as much as you can, push farther and farther. You create a field of lifeforce by doing so, in whatever way you can. There is no way that can be spoken of, it can only be lived…
I had a realization today of the alchemical process. It is the same as what I have been describing here, when related to in a bodily way. Tension in our bodies is like dead matter, the lifeforce does not flow easily within it. It is the dark element, sulphur I believe. And into this we must mix our breath, the ever changing, never still, always flowing air. This is the light element, quicksilver or mercury, I believe. When the two are separate, the body is not functioning. Where the barriers come down, and the breath is allowed back into the tense areas, the lifeforce flows again. This is the philosophers stone, the elixir of life. The breath activates the lifeforce hidden within the tense areas, but the breath is not the lifeforce itself.
Once the lifeforce is recovered, the return of tension becomes unbearable, and easily solved. We remember the feeling of the lifeforce and can bring it back within us. The more we embody that, the easier it becomes to embody it more and more thoroughly. And the more you embody, the more you see that everything else embodies it as well. And just by doing that, and creating that lifeforce within the timestream for others to see, use, experience, feel, you are doing the work of god and you are keeping the world alive.
Just watch out for the toxins held within the tense areas, as they can poison you if they are not mixed well with the awareness of the breath. And it can be hard to face these toxins with awareness, but we must do it. Otherwise the task in left uncompleted, and the tension/sulfur remains.
On a macrocosmic level, perhaps it is a question of a two brane reality? One high dimensional whole broken into two, and these two try to reunite to reform the whole? Hence the stories of a fall, or a polar existence. One if higher, one if lower (6 dimensional and 4 dimensional?) and together they are a 10 dimensional thing? As below, so above? In us, in bringing awareness and consciousness into the world of forms, we recreate the original eternal infinite.
The question is though, is the whole meant to be brought back together? Or is this realm of polarity through which we pass something that must exist, a stage that we go through in order to reach a higher level ourselves? That is, do we heal the spilt between the two, or do we just pass though it and onwards to higher realms? I guess the answer to this is to try it and find out. When the lifeforce is created, and you embody it more and more, do you pass on to other realms, or do you remain here? Personally, I don’t think the split is something that is meant to be healed. It is split because this gives light a chance to become embodied by form.
The gnostic idea of releasing the divine sparks with is ridiculous, in this worldview, as the divine is nothing without form. It is like emptying a teaspoon into the ocean, and expecting that teaspoon of water to be able to differentiate itself from the sea of water around it. It does not work, it is simply lost.
Whereas if this light consciousness takes on this body in order to better incarnate itself, in order to draw into itself the aspect of “form”, then everything is running properly, and we only have to get back to the joyful existence of becoming more and more an embodied consciousness, by allowing the awareness within us to quicken the forms and time stream around us.
