March 18, 2009
- Another dream -
Sister in trouble in Japan (not really trouble, just youthful problems).
Twin seals swimming through an underwater city. First time they are enjoying themselves. Second time, they appear to be enjoying themselves, but may actually be dead and pulled along on strings… Seals are playfully escaping from things gone wrong. The dead part really scares me.
Meditation:
Dry, intellectual realization of dependent arising, realized that I have been trying to weight the way for way too long now. Then, towards the end, when wanting to slack off because it felt like I was done, I decided to try and follow through, so to speak, and push until the incense ran out. Came to not-so-dry realization that everything in my head was put there by reality, and so each thought and assumption, everything I could ever come up with, no matter the quantity of thought, weighed the same, had the same importance as reality. And that reality is interacted with through measurement, interpretation, and definition. It was a really emptying-out experience, which I am not decribing too well. Mostly that whatever thought I had was just as valid as the actual experience I was having, but that the experience could be redefined, while the thought could not. Sounds weird….
Invocations and vibrations of Tara (tara mantra) before and after meditation. Yesterday as well…
