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July 30, 2009

- Live Debt Free -

I’ve been thinking that the thing to do right now is to get out of debt and to stay that way. I’ve been working on it myself (credit cards are done and those lousy student loans are next).

But I also mean something a little deeper than that. There are other debts than monetary ones, and those are usually more important.  Guilt is a kind of debt, in that you feel owe someone something as payment for whatever “wrong” you did. So is anger, if you hold on to it. Blame, both of yourself and others, for past or future actions, keeps things at less than zero.

The reason being is, as I’m sure everyone is aware, change is happening faster and faster (or at least our awareness of it and desire to control it is increasing…) And debt, of whatever kind, brings with it a kind of lag time, a slow emotional inertia. As change happens, it’s best to be as light on your feet as possible, and debt weakens your ability to do so. It means you have to account for more things before you can take action, and that there are less actions available to you when you do.

Now, given the interdependent nature of the world, it’s impossible to live without relying on others, but reliance is not the same as debt. Sure, needing, or even just wanting, to have someone or a group of people around also gives you more to account for and less available choice, but ideally, if you’re staying focused and making friends according to your value system, the positive’s will way out weigh the negatives. That’s what we like to call an investment.

But debt? Debt is nothing but negatives…



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July 30, 2009

- Today’s Stitchomancy -

Not that I take it all too seriously, but there’s this site where you can get daily tarot, i ching, and other divinatory readings, based on your name and birthday.   I check it daily, because:
1) why the hell not?
2) I’ve occasionally found them to be useful as a sort of foil for my thoughts.
3) my computer at work is usually really slow, so it’s generally good to have something quick and easy to read open in the background, as I wait for the “print” box to open…

Every once in a while though, they can be really good.  My stitchomancy “reading” for today is a particularly poetic excerpt, so I thought I’d share it here.  Stitchomancy, for those unfamiliar with it, is the divinitory act of closing your eyes, randomly opening a book, and pointing to a passage, which you then open your eyes and read.  Anyway, they’ve got a digitized version that picks from a bunch of classic novels and other texts (once I got something from the Bible, for example).

Today’s is from Tales of Unrest by Joseph Conrad:0140180362.01.MZZZZZZZ.gif

God!”

A shriek inhuman, vibrating and sudden, pierced like a sharp dart the white shroud of that land of sorrow. Three short, impatient screeches followed, and then, for a time, the fog-wreaths rolled on, undisturbed, through a formidable silence. Then many more shrieks, rapid and piercing, like the yells of some exasperated and ruthless creature, rent the air. Progress was calling to Kayerts from the river. Progress and civilization and all the virtues. Society was calling to its accomplished child to come, to be taken care of, to be instructed, to be judged, to be condemned; it called him to return to that rubbish heap from which he had wandered away, so that justice

July 28, 2009

- Silence -

Things are going to be quiet here for a while.  I got from the retreat Sunday night and have trying to re-collect my life, weeding through a lot of badness, keeping what’s good, trying to figure out how to throw out what’s not.  My garden’s gone to seed, it seems, from my own inability to care for it.  Hard to judge these things properly, but a large part of it is a streamlining of “stuff”.  Less sites to check daily, less books collecting dust on my shelf, less time spent doing nothing.  More inquiry into and focus on what’s important.  More cultivation of motivation.  Not sure what’s going to fit in and what’s not, but I am sure things will work out as they are meant to.  I have a lot more faith in life now, I will say that much…

I’ll be heading out to California this weekend and part of next week for the wedding of an old friend and some time with the family.  Probably won’t have time to put anything up here until I get back, but we’ll see how it goes.

Hope everyone out there is doing alright.  Be well everyone.

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July 20, 2009

- Going Back Out To Burrow Down And Uproot -

Well, in an effort to offer a bit of an explanation for the sudden (b)logorrhea, I dumped all the drafts I was hoping to “finish later”.  They probably aren’t quite as helpful as they could have been, but finishing them now isn’t as helpful as doing them properly the first time would have been anyway.  Holding on to things just causes problems and distortions.  I’d hate to think I was spending the next week trying to release my “grasping mind”, while still holding onto to so much in my “external hard-drive…”

And yeah, now’s probably a good time to mention that I’m heading back to the monastery again, for another meditation intensive.  Leaving the apartment as soon as I do some chi kung and shower.  A whole week this time, up at 3:55 every morning and no talking until Sunday noon-time.  Doing so will hopefully allow me a chance to enroll as a student at the temple here in NYC (for the sake of clarity, I wouldn’t be living there, just attending as a lay student).  But we will see how that goes when/if it happens.

Anyway, I should be back in NYC and in communicado on Sunday night.

and yes, I’m using that incorrectly on purpose, damn it, have some linguistical imagination…

Peace out ya’ll, and practice well.

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July 20, 2009

- Gurdjieff and Technology -

Technology is the active human interface with the material world. – Ursula K. Le Guin

beelzebub

From Gurdjieff’s “Beelzebub’s Tales To His Grandson”, page 1047

That they think thus may perhaps be possibly justified by taking into consideration that owing to the abnormal conditions of ordinary existence established in past epochs, no exact information has reached them about events which have occurred in the past in the process of the existence of the three-brained beings who existed before them on the planet; but how is it possible to admit that up till now there has not arisen in any one of them – in whom it has already been established that even until quite recently there does sometimes proceed a “something” similar to the process of “comparative logic” – at least the following simple and almost, as they themselves would call it, “childish idea”?”

Gurdjieff then goes on to explain what this “childish idea” is: that in the history of mankind, although everyone admits that there were many wise people, it never occurs to us that some of the surely could have invented such things as we take as technological progress.  If these previous wise beings could have invented these things but didn’t, why does it not occur to us that perhaps there was some reason for them not doing so?

(Beelzebub’s examples of technological progress, showing Gurdjieff’s preference for strange-yet-appropriate details, are comfortable toilets and canned food, but as with most of his Tales, if you get stuck on those details, you miss the main point.  And if you get through the details to the main point, then the details are understoof to be much more appropriate.)

Also, just to clarify, in the beginning of the above quote, the phrase “that they think thus” is referring to several earlier paragraphs where Beelzebub explains that one of the main causes of the trouble with the then-present society, was the belief that “former beings similar to them had never perfected themselves to that (level of) Reason to which their contemporaries have attained and in which they can still continue to perfect themselves”. That is, the idea that history is building toward something and that each era of history is in all ways progressively “better” than the previous.

Something kind of similar has come up here before, that every generation has to re-learn the knowledge of the past generations, and to add to it where we are able. But that to consider past knowledge as something that does not need to be learned because “someone else knows it already, why bother?” will only lead to more and more ignorance as time goes on.  And although I fully admit that the comments on this site and Gurdjieff’s thoughts on the value of “historical progress” are not exactly the same thing, where they do overlap is what I’m trying to get at here.  The belief that our society is the peak of all past civilizations, and the belief that progress marches on without stop and without maintenance, are both dangerous in exactly the same way…

All Gurdjieffian wise-acring aside, I do recommend reading the Tales.  The conclusions presented therein may not always make sense at first, or match in with modern scientific knowledge (was tempted to put that in quotes…), but Beelzebub’s thoughts on how a typical “three-brained being of perfected Reason” functions, is conveyed amazingly well, in a between-the-lines kind of way.  The language is difficult, yes, but in trying to understand it, and in tying the parts that do make sense together, the broader picture that is revealed is breathtaking.   Both the potentialities and the utter failings of humanity are put in sharp contrast.  As Gurdjieff apparently used to say, it really puts you “in galoshes”…

But the difficulty lies in appreciating it as a message from a certain person’s contextual viewpoint, directed at certain other people within a certain era of time. And to bring back in the quote from the beginning, one of the biggest problems in human history has been the fact that a truly “objective” history as such has not existed. As Beelzebub puts it “no exact information” has reached us about the past.  Look at some of the greatest spiritual teachers recognized now. Jesus, Buddha, Socrates, they all taught entirely through the spoken word, as addressed to the people at the time. That is, in a true combination of subject and object, their teachings were created directly for those people who were listening to them at the present time. If we are to truly derive any benefit from the teachings contained Plato’s dialogues, the Sutras, or the New Testament, we have to understand both the teachings, the teacher, and the students to which they were given (to all you Buddhists out there, that’s the three treasures right there…). Trying to understand any one without at least some limited understanding of the others will very likely lead to missing the point entirely.

Originally and most essentially, the dharma teachings were the words spoken and sung by the realized ones. Sutras, the words of the Buddha, always begin “Thus have I heard” not “Thus have I read.” In the same way that one could not expect to become a world-class pianist simply by reading piano manuals or a cook simply by reading cookbooks, one must receive the dharma teachings by hearing them from a teacher. To learn the dharma, we must hear the nuances and subtleties; we must experience the eloquence and the flights of those steeped in living understanding and realization.

Thankfully, and in spite of Gurdjieff’s warning against any idea of “unending progress”, we seem to be reaching a point where technology can serve as a sort of external hardrive for history, outside the bounds of 4 dimensional space time. Kind of a trippy way to put it, I know, but check out this article from Futurismic, and the accompanying BC News piece. If we ever are able to have a complete visual and audio record of everything that happens to us, as well as a way of adding our own comments to these records when desired, then we have essentially solved the problem of lack of a true objective historical context for any record. As it’s put in the linked article, we have not even really entered history yet. It’s something that’s still coming into being. But imagine being able to go back and access the recorded life of Christ, from his perspective, and then to be able to do the same for each of the people to whom he spoke. We’d perhaps have a better chance to know what he meant by what he said, to place his linguistic choices in the proper context to be able to extract the actual intent behind those sometimes arbitrarily seemingly linked word.

As Abraham Lincoln said in his “A House Divided” speech:  “If we could first know where we are, and whither we are tending, we could then better judge what to do, and how to do it.”

Which is just as true if you change it to third person past tense: “If we could first know where they were, and whither they were tending, we could then better judge what they did, and how they did it…”

Not only does that idea excite me (as well as trouble me, because yes, it does have some Big Brother, Brave New World type potentialities) but think what it creates in the mind. Think of a society where the ability to experience history like that is taken for granted. Where traveling back to the lived expereince of the past is as effortless as turning on your computer, and clicking on a few files. Where our own future, more mature perspectives can be brought back to better analyze, understand, and put to rest the demons from our past, both individually and collectively.

* The is also the last of my “on the train to Boston” posts.  Took me a while to get all the sources together for this one together.  Don’t know why some take longer than others, but that’s just how it goes.  Fitting, though, that I post this now, since I finally came to the end of the Tales just under an hour ago.

Course, ol’ Gurdjieff also said you should read each of his books three times.   Not sure how I feel about that.  For those unfamiliar with the Tales, the complex sentence structure of that quote is found throughout all the 1238 pages of the Tales.  my opinion is that Gurdjieff just has a unique way of teaching non-duality.  For G, sentences are no other than paragraphs, paragraphs no other than sentences.  Sentences are exactly paragraphs, paragraphs exactly sentences.

And you will have anywhere from 3 to 7 per page.  ;)

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July 19, 2009

- Chess Futures -

Here’s a picture showing the information being processed by a chess playing program called Thinking Machine:

Now, I’m not really any good at chess, the machine beat me within a few moves.   But this picture illustrates exactly what I mean by a fifth dimensional kind of reality.  At any point of NOW in timespace, every coherent THING exists as a web of possibilities, all containing seeds of possible futures.  Chess just makes this easy to see, because it limits the potentials so strictly, yet keeps enough of them to

Just sour grapes on my part?  Perhaps, to an extent, but what do you do with sour grapes?

The ephemeralization of language (although perhaps it is better to call it the ephemeralization of communication, as language as linguistics and semantics may never be of ) as a way to see our thoughts.

How good are the Weather Channel’s predictions?

“I don’t act it acts” is example of how the proper use of the mind feels. When perfectly present in body, mind will guide bodies actions…

At this point consciousness is removed from needing to witness and explain everything, and can instead reside fully in experiencing mode. Thoughts are like emotions, they come to me, through me, but they are not “I”.

In standard theories of rationality, it is practically axiomatic that having more choices is always better. It should come as no surprise that this isn’t true of real human beings: Too much choice can make us miserable.

How I learned to see in 3D

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July 19, 2009

- Plato’s Cave -

The cave skull is that within which we can play and change.  It is the knowledge of good and evil that keep us there.  Eden was not a garden from which we were banished.  The world is not a prison into which we were thrown.  Eden is everywhere, spread across the earth.  We just do not see it.

We get caught up in the prison because it’s easier?  Or safer…

Egoic mind overlaid upon reality like stonehenge upon the procession of equinoxes?

Once ego is seen as layer overlaying reality, can it be used?  Once is ego is transcended, then mind can act upon reality…

But ego mind is not a problem unless we act from it!  It is our way of sensing possibilities.  It is our quantum sense mechanism, navigating through time.   Time is inwards?

Must be in touch with reality first though.  Once egoic mind is seen through, once it is no longer identifyed with, when it is seen as something laid over reality, then the mind flower blooms in endless spring.  Then perhaps the flow of the river of time-line can be navigated through time space…

None of this is important of itself, it’s all just more ideas in the mind.  It is all meant as an attempt to construct skillful means that are relevant to the present day, to help people cross over to the other side, where the mind is seen as a screen laid over reality.  Or perhaps there’s more to it than that…

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July 19, 2009

- Ghost in the Shell, Networks, and “Mind” -

Really wanted to get this one together, but the bastard just kept collecting links.  So instead, here’s a little packet of idea-seed-links for you all…

One of the book’s central concepts is that as the human brain has grown, it has built upon earlier, more primitive brain structures, and that these are the “ghost in the machine” of the title. Koestler’s theory is that at times these structures can overpower higher logical functions, and are responsible for hate, anger and other such destructive impulses.

It is here that the computer tries to speak to him directly, although it is not certain how, revealing the nature of AM, specifically why it has so much contempt for humanity, that it wants nothing more than to torture Ted and his four companions. AM itself has, since its awakening, been suffering immeasurably because even though it is a sentient being which longs for free will and creativity, it is still bound by some of the laws of logic that it was originally programmed with, and thus feels that it can never be truly free. It places the blame solely on humanity.

So far the best prediction I’ve read along the lines of technologically based human immortality was bad news for the concept. Is was from a Luciferian remote viewer who said that he saw the downloading of minds/spirits into computers beginning in Japan. He says this became a great tragedy because as soon as the download was complete the people began begging for the robot, or whatever, to be turned off. He never said what was so unbearable or if they could be turned off.

only three things are necessary for it to be a big deal — 1) that you believe a brain could be incrementally replaced with functionally identical implants and retain its fundamental characteristics and identity, 2) that the computational capacity of the human brain is a reasonable number, very unlikely to be more than 10^19 ops/sec, and 3) that at some point in the future we’ll have computers that fast. Not so far-fetched. Many people consider these three points plausible, but just aren’t aware of their implications.

What Will Replace the Internet?  First it will become wireless and ubiquitous, crawling into the woodwork and perhaps even under our skin. Eventually, it will disappear…

Scientists have already hooked brains directly to computers by means of metal electrodes, in the hope of both measuring what goes on inside the brain and eventually healing conditions such as blindness or epilepsy. In the future, the interface between brain and artificial system might be based on nerve cells grown for that purpose.

Scientists are well on the way to creating the first artificial nerve cell that can communicate specifically with nerve cells in the body using neurotransmitters.

A team of computer scientists investigating the political, social and economic struggle between individual self-interest and the need to build a consensus have learned that, depending solely on the ability of individuals to interact in a network, as well as the number of connections they have to other participants and other structural properties, there are networks that generate the global adoption of minority viewpoints.

Penrose presents the argument that human consciousness is non-algorithmic, and thus is not capable of being modeled by a conventional Turing machine-type of digital computer. Penrose hypothesizes that quantum mechanics plays an essential role in the understanding of human consciousness. The collapse of the quantum wavefunction is seen as playing an important role in brain function. (Other potential possibilities hover around us in time-space, like quantum-super-position states, other pathways for our consciousness to travel down through time-space. Computers harbor little potential!  It’s a long possability-less slide through along a single, digital time-line, 1, 0, 1, 0, 1, 0….)

The technique, called targeted muscle reinnervation, involves taking the nerves that remain after an arm is amputated and connecting them to another muscle in the body, often in the chest. Electrodes are placed over the chest muscles, acting as antennae. When the person wants to move the arm, the brain sends signals that first contract the chest muscles, which send an electrical signal to the prosthetic arm, instructing it to move. The process requires no more conscious effort than it would for a person who has a natural arm.

Researchers in Italy and Switzerland have found carbon nanotubes to be bio-compatible and that the can be attached to neurons to boost the natural signal-processing capabilities of those neurons. (see also: carbon nanotubes may cause cancer…)

The value of a network explodes as its membership increases, and then the value explosion sucks in yet more members, compounding the result. (see also, the magnetic nature of “mind”).

July 19, 2009

- Butcher’s Blogdala -

Blog = 4th dimensional mandala

When used correctly, the webpage-as-blog becomes a mandala, a representation of the self.

It is the space within which I arrange all our ideas/personalities/aspects.

Most importantly, it shows that while each relates to the others, there’s always a space between them.

Chuang Zu’s dexterous butcher.  I work through these ideas slowly, post by post, until I’ve worked out to my satisfaction the “spaces between them” and PLOP!  they all fall apart.  And fall into place at the same time.

This relates to this and this relates to this and this relates to this and this…

Two ends to which to take this whole line of thought.

1) All “this’s” are interrelated.  That is, the end of the process is a mishmash of all thises in one THIS.

2) All this’s are connected yet separate. By saying “this is related to this” you are acknowledging both the things “thisness” and the ways in which the things are connected.

No real difference between the two, though, I suppose.

Another old piece, half digested, spit out before fully formed.  This one from mid-March, originally.

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July 19, 2009

- disconnected thoughts from a while back -

Some ramblings saved from early February.  I’m coming to the understanding that saving these things is an exercise in futility.  Not writing full posts because I want to perfect them later just means that I have more old posts to get through before I can get anything new done.  Better to release them on time, while they are still relevant to my current “active mentations”…

Still I liked this one enough to put it up anyway…

Stonhenge, astrology, ley lines.  All connecting the ground level to a higher level.  See the ways in which the two interact…  Allow the movements of culture to imitate those of the cosmos.  Do they?  Maybe yes maybe no.  Should they?  Why shouldn’t they?

Yet, you are never “outside” the system.  That’s the problem…

You must both see the mind at work and not see yourself as the mind at work.  You must take a position external to it to re-coordinate it.  But once removed, can you step back in? Neo and the Matrix say no, not without being bound back in. Red and blue Tuinals, lipstick-red Seconals….  Which pill do you take, the one that screams you awake, or the one that poisons you back to a forced eternity of comfortably numb unreality?

No, can’t be true. We need healthy, natural sleep…all the better from which to eventually fuly awake . Could we die at the hands of the machines we’ve programmed?  Mega Man and Dr Wiley come to mind here…  Mega Man as Guardian Angel, binding the demons to your service, in order to tackle the king demon and stop the creation of demons?  Heh…  But you yourself are no other than one of those very demons, little blue man with a pellet gun hand….

No, we must just be able to see beyond the edges of the system.  The system’s always there, we’re just not limited to it.  Hold to both sides, be pulled up and down by gravity, both human and divine…

But tinker with this stuff and you’re only tinkering with your own personal section of the code.  Tinker with it successfully and it might spread, virally.  But be careful, because those cultural codings were put in place for a reason, and if you don’t respect that, you’ll pull apart something important.

My mouse was covered in something sticky the other day, so I took it apart.  While putting it back together, I lost the piece that makes the wheel click.  Now it’s just a smooth roll.  Nice, but the click was useful too.  At least now my mouse isn’t sticky though…

Local pathways changed to a globocosmic overarching schematic.   Snake-in-the-hawks-claws.  Ley lines.  Songlines.  Cultural coding linked to cosmic persepctive.  Can’t stop.  Logarhea….

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July 19, 2009

- Anger -

Anger is caused by allowing something to take away your joy-in-the-present-moment.  The thing is though, that’s never really possible.  That kind of abiding joy, that happiness-of-presence, is always right here-now, but the anger tricks you into thinking that it can only be found somewhere beyond your current state. The angrier you are, the easier it is to place that happiness in some other state and keep it there.  Because you couldn’t possibly be happy when your this angry!

Yet that happiness is never “there”; it’s always “here”.

Let go of that phantom of happiness-found-only-elsewhere, accept that experience of anger, and understand that the joy-of-now is present all along, underneath that anger. Once you find that, then begin to work on breaking down the conditioning, created and strengthened in those original fires of anger, that made you mistakenly believe that you could ever find joy anywhere “out there”.

Learn how to cultivate it here instead, in any state, under any emotion.

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July 12, 2009

- Advertising: Evolution in Action? -

Giving people the choice to see or not to see advertising might seem reasonable, even democratic, but it works against the principle at the heart of the outdoor advertising industry, which is that effective advertising is advertising that cannot be turned off, cannot be fast-forwarded, cannot be avoided by turning the page or getting up and walking out of the room. In a heavily fractured media environment a captive audience has great value, which is the reason that this recession has seen spending on outdoor advertising fall much less precipitously than spending on other media. (via Trying To Follow)

Money is spent on advertising because it works, plain and simple.  If it didn’t work, no one would spend any money on it, particularly not corporations to whom money is pretty much the end-all-be-all of everything.  Most people do subconsciously buy into advertising on some level, and the more of it there is, the less likely we are to realize that we’ve got any alternative.  In a sense, advertising is doing exactly what Adam did in the garden of Eden: naming things.  Except that there aren’t that many things that need names any more, so advertising is trying to rename things instead.  Things like “joy” get renamed “Pepsi” (or was that “Coke“?), things like “I am attractive to attractive people” get named “Budweiser” (she likes it in the can, man!).  And as it is explained in Douglas Rushkoff’s masterful documentary “The Persuaders” (watch the whole thing online, for free, here), all these renamed things quickly end up cluttering our mental landscape, clutter that then must be “broken through” by advertisers in order to reach through to the consumer.  Advertising is something that we build up immunities to, like roaches.  “You spray them and spray them, and after a while it doesn’t work any more” (thank you, Naomi Klein, for that wonderful metaphor).

It seems at first that this means we have to constantly be on our guard, to keep our emotional/intellectual immune system healthy, or else admit that we are unable to do so and therefore must allow advertising to make it’s will our own.  Definitely a sad, tiring state of affairs, but could there maybe be a different way to look at it?  At it’s heart, advertising is effective because, on some level, we are allowing someone else to define our reality for us.  That’s something we should probably begin to stop doing at the age of seven (when according to the Catholic Church, we reach a high enough level of intelligence to sin and exercise our rights as individuals).  Now the actual age doesn’t matter, but the fact is that, at a pretty early age, we do begin to understand that we have some personal voluntary control over our own actions and decisions, and it’s supposed to grow from there.  Be it at 7, 9, or 12, it doesn’t matter too much.  But 25,  30,  50? It’s not so easy to excuse at that point.

The point being that the core of advertising’s effectiveness is a simple human foible: the need to look to someone else, over and above our own sense of reality, to make decisions about what our reality means to us.  It’s a largely subconscious need, at least until we start looking into our daily experience.  But once we do start looking, we can begin to become aware of our subconscious programming, watching it unfold as if it were someone else acting through us (which, in this context, it pretty much is), and slowly but surely trimming off parts of it like Hercules and the Hydra.  This is in no means easy to do, nor do I mean to imply that this is anything I have done myself, that’s for sure.

But if we are to do anything other than slowly sink into a quicksand of conflicting messages and implanted desires, we’re going to have to develop an immunity to the very act of allowing someone else to define our reality for us.  We are and (almost) always have been the prime mover of our reality.  This is a fact that doesn’t change, no matter how much we might want it to.  It’s time we starting living up to that responsibility.  As soon as we stop looking to other people for direction before looking within, advertising will fade like a bad dream.  It simply won’t be worth the resources any more.

Humans, as we so often like to remind ourselves, are pretty much at the top of the food chain.  That means no natural predators.  We don’t really have any other top-of-foodchain groups to look at, to see how this kind of thing plays out, but my two-cent-bet is that we may have just become our own predator.  That would explain a lot of human history, wouldn’t it?  Why we feel alone in the universe, why we look for some divine parental figure to punish us for our sins.  We’ve had nothing real to fight against for a long time, and we’re still haven’t come to terms with that.  In the past, we could always look for other communities of humans to make into the “other”, to have something to fight against.  But now that’s not really an option, no matter how much our political “leaders” may tell us otherwise.  We’re also fighting nature itself, at this point, which is pretty much the worse case of “biting the hand the feeds you” that I can think of.  Cause this is the hand the feeds everybody.

It’s long been time for us to turn around and face the predator within, and to a certain extent, we’re doing it.  We are forcing ourselves to evolve, but we have to turn and push that self-destructive urge right up and out of us, because otherwise we’re pushing it inwards to become stagnant and twisted.  It’s time to make peace with the “other” and to realize that we don’t have any need for an “other” to fight anymore.

Satan is a evilous man,
But him can’t chocks it on I-man
So when I check him my lassing hand
And if him slip, I gaan with him hand

I’m gonna put on a iron shirt, and chase satan out of earth
I’m gonna put on a iron shirt, and chase the devil out of earth
I’m gonna send him to outa space, to find another race
I’m gonna send him to outa space, to find another race

Or, if you prefer your wisdom to be a little more by The Book:

There is nothing from without a man, that entering into him can defile him;
but the things that proceed from a man are they that defile a man.

rousseau_surprised_tiger

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July 12, 2009

- Whales Dying From the Bends -

It might sound like something out of a bad sci-fi film: whales sent into suicidal dashes toward the ocean’s surface to escape the madness-inducing echo chamber that we humans have made of their sound-sensitive habitat. But since the Canary Islands stranding in 2002, similar necropsy results have turned up with a number of beached whales, and the deleterious effects of sonar and other human-generated sounds on ocean ecosystems have been firmly established.

Absolutely horrible.  Imagine killing yourself out of pure terror.  Now imagine killing yourself out of pure terror because the one sense you most use to make sense of your world is suddenly being filled with sense data that is completely meaningless and horribly intense. John Lilly supposedly gave dolphins LSD, but even their worst trips must have been nothing compared to this.  All for the sake of weapons testing or ocean floor mapping.

They get the bends from surfacing so rapidly.  I’d beach myself too…

July 10, 2009

- That’s some good quality spam -

Lotus pretended … vanquished situation … hands outheld … right mind … lready life … not trying … bring their … one piece … programmed never … believe they … rations they … awaken him … safety and … superior artificial … but lead … recalling you … once busied … eople will arver.

The ellipses are where the links were, and like every other link was to psilocyn.

I liked this one, they’re usually not so short.  Nor do they normally seem to contain as much sense as this one does.  I just wish I knew what “arver” meant.  That feels like the key to unraveling the whole thing…

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July 9, 2009

- Evolution is a tinkerer -

Posted this over at the links a little while ago, but I’m really excited about it.  Some excerpts from an article at Seed Magazine:
- A curious phenomenon has nagged at biologists for the past few decades, as they have acquired better tools for probing deeper into the molecular biology of diverse organisms. Where they once assumed that the passage of vast amounts of time, over half a billion years in this case, would have produced divergences in the molecular patterns that govern animal forms as radical as those seen in the forms themselves, it now seems that something else transpired. As we discover more about the molecular basis of building structures like limbs and eyes, we’re finding more instances of homologous molecular players being recruited to do similar jobs in morphological features that are not themselves homologous.

- The dorsal-ventral boundaries of the vertebrate limb bud and the insect wing disc are established by a gene called fringe; other axes and boundaries are defined by genes in the wingless, apterous, hedgehog, and decapentaplegic families, and they operate in roughly similar ways in both groups of animals. This is like discovering that two cultures have independently invented a game like basketball, and then finding that while the games look vastly different in play, the court dimensions are the same, right down to the distance of the three-point line and the diameter of the center circle. It should make one question how independent their origins actually are.

- The octopus eye and the human eye superficially resemble each other from the outside, but structurally the tissues of each are organized in profoundly different ways, with different arrangements of cells in the retina, different kinds of photosensitive cells, and very different optic nerves. Dig deeper still, however, and all these eyes—octopus eyes, human eyes, fly eyes, spider eyes, flatworm eyespots—have a common master regulator gene, called Pax-6 in vertebrates and eyeless in flies.

- And the genes are interchangeable! Extract Pax-6 from a mouse, inject it and express it in the limb of a fly, and the confused tissues of the fly will respond by assembling an eye—a fly’s eye—on its limb.

- Evolution is a tinkerer that cobbles together new functions from old ones, and the genome is a kind of parts bin of recyclable elements. When new features evolve, the parts in the bin are co-opted to operate in new roles.

- This makes these master genes precisely analogous to the stock of goods found in a hobbyist’s electronics store. Standard subunits—oscillators, op-amps, field effect transistors, switches, rheostats, and so forth—will get incorporated into many different kinds of projects; whether she is building a radio or a synthesizer or a burglar alarm, the hobbyist will find it easier to just grab an oscillator integrated circuit off the shelf than to design her own.

- This is what we’re seeing in biology, too. We find an evolutionary novelty, like the vertebrate limb, and we can determine that it arose uniquely in our lineage. At the same time, we find a deeper heritage of shared genes that we hold in common with all other animals—a metazoan tool kit upon which we all draw to evolve.

Can you tell I used to love Lego kits as a kid?

July 9, 2009

- The Taijitu of Zhou Dun-yi -

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“In the beginning, there was t’ai chi (taiji) (the great ultimate of being), which was fundamentally identical with wu chi (wuji) (the ultimate of non-being). Because of the abundance of energy within t’ai chi, it began to move and thus produced the yang (the positive cosmic force). When the activity of the yang reached its limit, it reverted to tranquility. Through tranquility the yin (the negative cosmic force) was generated. When tranquility reached its limit, it returned to movement (yang). Thus yin and yang generated each other. Then, through the union of the yin and the yang the transformation of both, the five agents (or elements) of metal, wood, water, fire and earth were brought into being. These five agents are conceived of as material principles rather than as concrete things. They can therefore be considered the common basis of all things. The interaction of the yin and yang through different combinations of the five agents generates all things in a process of endless transformation.

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Zhou Dun-yi conceptualized the Neo-Confucian cosmology of the day, explaining the relationship between human conduct and universal forces. In this way, he emphasizes that humans can master their qi (“vital life energy”) in order to accord with nature. He was a major influence to Zhu Xi, who was the architect of Neo-Confucianism. Zhou Dunyi was mainly concerned with Taiji (supreme polarity) and Wuji (limitless potential), the yin and yang, and the wu xing (the five phases).

Although very active in his civil service career he never did achieve a high position or get the “Presented Scholar” degree (jinshi). Some of the positions that he held were district record keeper (1040), magistrate in various districts (1046-1054), prefectural staff supervisor, and professor of the directorate of education and assistant prefect (1061-1064), among others. He resigned from his last post one year before he died. He died in Lushan, Jiangxi province.

He developed a metaphysics based on the idea that “the many are “ultimately” one and the one is ultimate”.

Spoke of principle, nature, and destiny together, which became 3 cardinal concepts of Confucian thought. He had a Daoist perspective toward nature. There are stories of Zhou Dunyi loving his grass so much that he would not cut it, reinforcing the concept that humans should appreciate life in nature and the importance of non-action. Zhou Dunyi is also known to have said that the best quality of life is that of a pure Lotus growing out of dirty waters, where the Lotus is the natural equivalent of the noble person.

During his lifetime, Zhou was not an influential figure in Song political or intellectual life. He had few, if any, formal students other than his nephews, the Cheng brothers, who studied with him only briefly when they were teenagers. He was most remembered by his contemporaries for the evident quality of his personality and mind.

The two key terms, which appear in the opening line of the Explanation, are wuji and taiji, translated here as “Non-Polar” and “Supreme Polarity.” Wuji had been used in the classical Daoist texts, Laozi (Chapter 28), Zhuangzi (Chapter 6), and Liezi (Chapter 5). Wu is a negation, roughly equivalent to “there is not;” ji is literally the ridgepole of a peaked roof, and usually means “limit” or “ultimate.” So in these early texts wuji means “the unlimited,” or “the infinite.” But in later Daoist texts it came to denote a state of primordial chaos, prior to the differentiation of yin and yang, and sometimes equivalent to dao.

Taiji was sometimes identified with Taiyi, the Supreme One (a Daoist divinity), and with the pole star of the Northern Dipper. It carried connotations of a turning point in a cycle, an end point before a reversal, and a pivot between bipolar processes. It became a standard part of Daoist cosmogonic schemes, where it usually denoted a stage of chaos later than wuji, a stage or state in which yin and yang have differentiated but have not yet become manifest. It thus represented a “complex unity,” or the unity of potential multiplicity. In the form of Daoist meditation known as neidan, or physiological alchemy, it represented the energetic potential to reverse the normal process of aging by cultivating within one’s body the spark of the primordial qi (psycho-physical substance), thereby “returning” to the primordial, creative state of chaos from which the cosmos evolved. Chen Tuan’s Taiji Diagram, when read from the bottom upwards, is thought to have been originally a schematic representation of this process of “returning to wuji” (Laozi 28), the “Non-Polar,” undifferentiated state.

In bringing this largely Daoist terminology into Confucian discourse (chaos was generally frowned upon by Confucians), Zhou may have been attempting to show that the Confucian view of humanity’s role in the cosmos was not really opposed to the fundamentals of the Daoist worldview, in which human categories and values were thought to alienate human beings from the Dao. In effect, he was co-opting Daoist terminology to show that the Confucian worldview was actually more inclusive than the Daoist: it could accept a primordial chaos while still affirming the reality of the differentiated, phenomenal world.

July 8, 2009

- Salinas California (home home on the range…) -

While visiting my family last Christmas, I managed to catch some spectacular land-and-sky-scapes while walking through a nature preserve near my house (yes, on the way to Starbucks, but still…).  I’d always kind of disliked where I grew up, even after I’d moved away.  To me, it was your stereotypical small-tow-where-nothing-ever-happens kind of place.  I kept waiting for something to come and take me out of it, and when nothing did, I moved to New York (where I continued to wait for several years).  Landscape-wise, it was all low, wet swampland.  “Salinas” basically means “salt-marsh” in Spanish, and it felt like that to me, in every possible way: slow, stinky, damp, salty, stagnant… Definitely not the most stimulating place to grow up.  But visiting last winter really brought me a new appreciate for the area and its moments of hidden beauty.

Of course, as it always goes, the place itself hadn’t actually changed much at all.  But I had changed, immensely so, and it seems I’m still in the midst of those changes.  In fact, I’m beginning to wonder if they’re ever going to end, or even slow down a little…  My horoscope says I am in the beginning of a “Uranus transits opposite Sun” which is apparently something that happens once every 84 years and will last until March 2011.  And, lucky me, I get this right in the middle of my first Saturn Return as well!

July 3, 2009

- Love The Evil -

Because love is endless, whereas evil is necessarily limited.

Evil is in search of rest, while love IS rest.

Evil will always wear itself out before love will, as long as the contact between the love and the evil is maintained.

evil = me > you

love = me = you

It is impossible for the center point to hate.  In order to BE the center point, it must necessarily accept all things, as the ocean does the rivers.


(granted, this is more in a conceptual, personal-demon-binding kind of way, than it is any easy answer to the larger social problems of deeling with “evil”, but still helpful, I hope.)

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July 3, 2009

- Climate control and other predictive patterns -

This interview Climatologist Calvin Schmidt on climate control, found in the latest online issue of Edge has been making the rounds a couple of places, but I noticed that the way climate control is described could just as easily be applied our attempts to build models of reality in our minds…

There is a simple way to produce a perfect model of our climate reality that will predict the weather changes with 100% accuracy. First, start with a universe self that is exactly like ours you; then wait 13 billion years a few decades.

But if you want something useful right now, if you want to construct a means of taking the knowledge that we you have and use using it to predict future climate events, you build computer mental simulations. Your models are messy, complicated, in constant need of fine tuning, exacting and inexact at the same time. You’re using the past to predict the future, extrapolating the very complicated from the very simple, and relying on an ever-changing data stream to inform the outcome.

Climatologist Gavin Schmidt explains:

“How do you ask questions about expectations in the future? Obviously, you have to have things that are based on the physics that we know what you have experienced. You have to have things that are based on processes we can go and measure you understand to be repeatable, that has to be based on our your ability to understand the climate that we have the reality around you right now. Why do you get seasonal cycles keep doing the same shitty things ove and over? Why do you get storms do things fall apart ? What controls the frequency of these events over a winter, over a longer period during a period of low energy and motivation, of depression? What controls the frequency of, say, El Nino events in the tropical Pacific that have impacts on rainfall in California or in Peru or in Indonesia having someone cutting you off in traffic on the way to work on Tuesday, that effects your poker game that weekend? How do you understand all of those these things?”

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