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  - The Golden Key-  
 


One of my favorite stories as a child was "The Golden Key", by George MacDonald. I've decided to put it up here to share with everyone. Enjoy!

The Golden Key
By George MacDonald

There was a boy who used to sit in the twilight and listen to his great-aunt’s stories. She told him that if he could reach the place where the end of the rainbow stands he would find there a golden key.

“And what is the key for?” the boy would ask. “What is it the key of? What will it open?”

“That nobody knows,” his aunt would reply. “He has to find that out.”

“I suppose, being gold,” the boy once said, thoughtfully, “that I could get a good deal of money for it if I sold it.”

“Better never find it than sell it,” returned his aunt.

And the boy went to bed and dreamed about the golden key.

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  - Poetry? -  
 

Diamond Mind:
It is the mind that is clear, transparent.
Imagine a diamond in a stream of water. You could not see the diamond at all.
Like the diamond in the stream, you should be just as clear in the stream of life.
Or instead, imagine a shaft of light.
If there is nothing in it, the light is invisible.
You can only see the light when there is something there to reflect it.
Now into this shaft of light, place a diamond.
The diamond gives brilliance to the light, making it bright, colorful, shining.
Such must your mind be within the beam of life that is the now.


Untitled 1:
There are charcoal briquettes in my grill.
By the time the food for the party is prepared,
they will have become diamonds.

Untitled 2:
That which is within you and moves you,
loves
that which is around you.
Bliss.


Rocks
Searching for enlightenment is like being a man holding onto rocks on the sea floor.
Each rock he comes to, he lifts.
Some rocks contain bubbles beneath them.
Yet no rock, no matter how big the bubbles underneath, is going to allow him to breathe freely.
Let go of the rocks, learn to swim.
The air that is within you will lead you to the surface.
One day, your head will break the waves and you will breathe.

Yggsdrasil:
I am the Tree.
My sap begins in my roots, below the ground.
It slithers up my legs and rests in my stomach, or twines further up amongst my branches.
My thoughts are as leaves, spread out to catch the light from above, singing songs of joy.
If I am lucky, these thoughts will bear fruit,
fruit that is sweetened by my sap and the soft summer sun…

 
 

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  - Essay 1: Icebergs -  
 


I heard the relationship between the conscious mind and the unconscious mind described as an iceberg:

The part above the water is the conscious mind, the part below (which we cannot see) is the unconscious, and the iceberg as a whole functions as the total self. This metaphor is usually used to show that there is much more to our “self” than what is contained within our conscious awareness.

What I want to do is examine this iceberg-as-self metaphor and see how much farther I can go with it. To take the first step, I would like to point out that the iceberg is floating in water, and that the iceberg is also made up of water.

So, to expand the metaphor, what is it that the self floats in? I would say it floats in the world, in reality, this present point in the space-time continuum. Reality washes around us just as the water washes around that iceberg. And just as the iceberg is made up of frozen water, so too can the self be seen as made up of frozen moments of reality, in the form our memories.

Once we have captured them, these frozen moments no longer come and go, no longer coalesce around us and fade away. We chose to retain these memories as parts of our self, for whatever reason, and we cannot, or will not, let them go. And so, just as frozen water makes up an iceberg, these frozen waves of reality make up what we think of as our “self“.

Contained in our conscious mind are the memories of which we are aware, and like the top of the iceberg, they float above the watery reality that washes around us, because reality can only touch our conscious mind at the waterline of the 5 senses.

Below the conscious mind is the unconscious mind, supporting our consciousness within the wash of reality. The unconscious mind is larger then the conscious mind, in order to act as a counter-weight to keep the conscious mind afloat amidst the moving waves. Since it is in such intimate contact with these waves, the unconscious mind is much more aware of their movements than our conscious mind ever is, and it reacts to them more strongly, to counteract the pressures they exert upon the self.

Yet in the end, the conscious and the unconscious are both parts of the whole self, separate and distinct from reality, and both are moved back and forth upon its waves.

I can hear a complaint: “But my conscious mind also includes the things around me. I look up and I am conscious of that tree standing outside my window.” But really, although you see this ‘tree‘, the only reason you recognize it as a ‘tree’ is because of the frozen moment of time when you, as a child, asked “what is that?” and someone replied “it is a tree”.

So the iceberg metaphor has been extended to suggest a self made up of frozen moments of reality, floating on (and within) an ever changing sea of reality. We pick up impressions and memories as we go along, and that‘s pretty much all there is to it.

But really, do we only consist of frozen memories carried through time? Are we mere gatherers of information, recorders and aggregates of what we have seen and experienced?

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  - Kinder Than the Landscape -  
 


The Fish we used against the Garden People came from far off, and bringing them here was a hard task of luck and love. We brought them from the River Hern, and hid them like cows in summer fields of long grass and hay. Then we sat to wait. Soon the Judge came down from The Mountain and said it was time for war. And we used the Fish to great effect in the Battle of Eltern’s Garden.

To be true, it was horrible for the Garden culture. Using Rabbits from the warrens of Augenblick would have been kinder. Even the Great Wagoners fought the men and women of the Garden with thousands of Rabbits from the green pastures of Blumenbeete, and did so with much success.

But we used Fish from the Hern, and the enemy shook, and some went into seizures when they saw us astride the great Salmon, dying in waves of hopelessness, all lying face down in the green grass. The others ran, or stood their ground to fight, but none could stand long against the terrible Fish…

Then the battle was won, and the Vogel came, as is their want, to wipe the fallen warriors’ foreheads and cover their eyes with cloth. We fed the enemy to our great Sturgeons, (the fish used the world over, those great Sturgeons, for clearing away what the other fish had killed), and they feasted on the fallen enemy ranks from sunset to sunrise.

Once the fields were emptied of the frenzied fish, all that was left of the dead was their weighted armor, and among the armor sat the Vogel, angered at the lack of respect. We chased them from the fields with a loud clamor and by quickly rushing at their heads…

At dawn, we let the Fish rest. Often had Fish been pushed to hard on the battlefield, and, going mad, turned on their masters. Such a fate had befallen the Vorhange, leaving a dire warning in the pages of history. So dire, in fact, that mammals have been preferred ever since for the purposes of warfare and the feast afterwards.

We then went out onto the emptied field and drank fermented Kerzenrauch in memory of the enemy who had put up such a valiant fight. To not show even this little respect to the fallen warriors went against the ways of the Gods. And since we had use the Great Fish, those ferocious weapons of war, we must appease the Gods thus, to ensure that our tale does not fade with the night.

art by Michael Cheval
© 2008
(used with permission from the artist)


 
 

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  - Hypertext -  
 

I plan on beginning this whole posting-more-often thing by going through my backlog of work and pulling out stuff which I still think is worth sharing. Don't worry, you don't have to agree with me on that. I'm going to be sharing it anyway.

Hopefully, I can put all that old work to rest and make some room for new stuff. That's basically what I hope this site will become for me: a reason to push myself to create and a way to make doing so more central in my life. If others enjoy it, so much the better.

So, having said that, where do I start?

I start here, in the Lotris province of ancient Japan...

A little something I put together as one of my first ever experiments in hyper-text, back in my college days. They told me at the time that hypertext was poised to make a breakthrough as the next big literary genre. I'm still waiting...

 
 

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  - Well, here it is -  
 

After many long days of hard work, the new Reclusland is finally done.

Will it work as well as I have hoped? We'll have to wait and see, but I am damn happy with it right now.

All my old stuff is available in the archives of the relative sections. I've simplified the art and photography archives (keeping comments intact), so they are now simple lists of the old material. The webdesign portfolio was redone to give each of my clients an individual post, as it wasn't that difficult to set up. The layout of the webdesign portfolio is also how all the new material will be archived into the other categories, after it is removed from the main page (ie: right here).

Obviously, I am basing this on the various blog softwares that are out there, but I enjoy that my page is only simple html. That makes it both easier and more complex than an actual blog, but hey, this is what I do, and I think I do it pretty well.

Also, the Reclusland Research Log is up and running over on tumblr, so check that out from time to time to see where my interests are leading me. It's my one concession to the whole web 2.0 thing... That counts as Web 2.0 right?

Anyway, please check back in regularly, I hope to make posts here a regular thing.

 

 
 

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  - 0 -  
 

Invented separately in both India and South America, the numeral zero is an important idea in the development of any mathematical, organizational system. It acts as a placeholder for higher integers and allows for the existence of negative numbers. In the Cartesian coordinate system, 0 stands for the starting position. In a way, it is the "you are here" of the universe.

0 the only thing that both is and is not. It is the only indivisible number. And it is the only number that guarantees a negative result when something is taken away from it and a positive result when something is added to it. And I plan on doing a lot of adding here.

 
 

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